April32012

Pain is a reality of living. And I have learned to deal with it. When I need a shot I close my eyes and wait for it to be over. When I scrape my knee I put on a band-aid and let the healing process begin. But internal pain is so much harder to deal with. What I crave does not have an easy solution or one that my body’s cells will unite in order to fix. My mind plays tricks and can lull my entirety into believing a lie.

And it is moments like this where I crave touch. I just want someone to hold me and slowly run his fingers through my hair. We don’t need to talk or figure things out—the presence of someone who cares can speak more than audible reassurance. The simple gift of time and closeness is all I crave right now. My insecurities bubble to the surface and shout to me that I don’t matter. They tell me that if I was worth something I wouldn’t feel so alone. That is I was loved I wouldn’t have this longing. 

March282012
5PM
5PM
Blue skies are calling. But I know that it’s hard.
- Noah and the Whale

Blue skies are calling. But I know that it’s hard.

- Noah and the Whale

(Source: notintellectualjustphoto)

March102012
"the only person standing in your way is you"
- black swan

"the only person standing in your way is you"

- black swan

(via crumbledpapers)

9PM
9PM

I could really use a friend tonight.

February82012
12AM

burnt out

2.8.12

i’m afraid to be alone
but then i realize that
what does it matter?
if no one is sitting next to me
because even if this couch was holding
another breathing body
i’d still be by myself

because you don’t understand
can’t understand
what it is like
to not feel like anything
to walk down the lighted hallway
and be angry at the lights
for knowing how to shine

i didn’t come with a switch or
any replacement bulbs
when my glow goes out 

12AM

Things get better, right? 

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